The concept of a life before life plan has been the greatest key in my transformative journey. My name is Betty Guadagno, I went from a drug addicted, sex worker, and radical atheist to a devout believer in long term recovery, working as a recovery coach, and manifesting a life beyond my wildest dreams.
This shift took place in my life after an overdose of drugs caused a spiritually transformative experience, a spontaneous Kundalini awakening. Kundalini energy is described as life force energy. My chakra system was activated and opened all at once and as my third eye and crown chakra opened, I was transported to the space of eternity, the same space that near death experiencers describe.
While I was in the space of heaven, I was told that I am a spiritual soldier, sent to earth on a divine mission to assist the collective in awakening from a level of third dimensional thinking to fifth dimensional thinking.
I was surrounded by, what felt like, hundreds of thousands of other souls that were all there for the same mission. When entering the space of heaven I was a devout, militant atheist, I didn’t believe in anything more and I couldn’t believe I was part of a bigger plan, at all.
Heaven felt like a great reunion, a feeling of finally being complete and no longer fractured. I told the beings downloading me with this information that I was not interested in going back to Earth and I was happy to be home and I would be watching the show from right where I was. I was told that I had to go back, that the first half of my life was like boot camp and the second part of my life would be carrying out the divine mission. They assured me that the second half of my life wouldn’t be nearly as challenging as the first half. To prove this to me, they took me through more specific aspects of my pre-birth planning.
I was presented with a scene that played out much like a movie. A man wearing a fedora and a plaid blazer showed up with an empty shopping cart. He told me to pick my life. I could perceive myself as an orb of light, my true essence. I thought, “Well, if I’m going to Earth, I’M GOING TO EARTH.”
I was walking through the aisles of a grocery store, on the shelves were large cereal shaped boxes with different life experiences printed on them. I grabbed everything I could get my *hands* on: addiction, prostitution, the double suicide of my parents, poverty, rape, incest, molestation, abusing others. Every hardship and adversity had been chosen, and then there were things in the cart I had not experienced yet in my life: overcoming, recovery, abundance, spiritual awakening, community, being an author and motivational speaker.
After they presented me with this download of information, I had an instant shift in consciousness. I released my victim mentality, things had no longer happened to me, they had happened FOR me, because on some soul level, I had chosen it for the evolution of myself.
I felt 2 tons of bondage released from me. I was so elated with this information, I thanked the beings that were guiding me through my experience, and then politely told them that I would still not be going back to Earth. They told me I must return, that my story was not yet finished, there were still so many experiences I hadn’t gotten to yet.
I said again, “I’m not interested in going back to Earth, I will watch the show from here, Earth is way more challenging then you described and I will not go back.” I transformed into a small child, in my mind’s eye, I was kicking my feet and stomping my hands. They told me that I had to balance the life I signed up for and if I refused to go back into my body, they would show me the body I would be born into.
They showed me a beautiful baby girl, and downloaded me with all the information about that girl. Her gender, her ethnicity, where she would be born, her parents, her adversity, her mission, her purpose. After seeing this child’s life, I realized that I would be reliving everything I had already gotten through in the shopping cart of my life. I threw my figurative hands up in the air and exclaimed, “I cannot start from zero, I’ll go back into the body I came from.”
I found myself back in my awareness. I wrote this experience off as drug induced psychosis. All I knew was that I had taken a bunch of drugs and then I thought I was talking to God. Through a series of divine signs and synchronicities, I was faced with the reality that this was something that had really happened to me, and my life needed to transform to complete the rest of the boxes in the shopping cart.
I found myself in a long term drug recovery community. In this space my reprogramming took place and fully stepped into my soul’s mission. I utilized certain tools, meditation, free-writing, and practicing the law of attraction in my life.
I realized that since my life was planned before I came to Earth, my thoughts must be shaping my reality. I was now given the belief that I could have new thoughts, and so my new thoughts took form and my life transformed.
My life before my experience was full of thoughts like, “I’m not worthy, my life is miserable, bad things always happen to me, I’m a victim,” and so that was my experience. All of those things were my life. Today I have different thoughts, “I’m a divine co creator of my experience, I am grateful, I am abundant, my soul family is magnetized to me,” and so it is.
My life today is surrounded by many spiritual communities. I study A Course In Miracles, the Baha’i Faith, and many other sacred texts. I belong to a group for spiritual experiencers on the IANDS platform, and I belong to a 12-step community. I have spiritual mentors, friends, and companions that assist me in carrying out the rest of my divine mission here.
When I woke up in eternity, it felt like my whole human life was a dream that I could barely remember. After coming back, I realized that my life was actually a nightmare. Today, I take the steps to make it a happy dream and knowing that I have already chosen all the major plot points of my story gives me so much freedom. I don’t have to worry or grasp at control of any aspect of my life, it is all written and there isn’t anything I can do to mess that up.
If that awareness and release is possible for me, it’s possible for anyone.
Betty Guadagno
Betty Guadagno had a transformative Kundalini awakening in March of 2019. She went from a drug-addicted sex worker and self-described radical atheist to a devout believer in long-term recovery, working as a recovery coach and manifesting a life beyond her wildest dreams. In her experience she was taken through her pre-birth planning and shown the inter-connectedness of all things.
